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Y’all really didn’t like my email last week, fine. I get it.. short and sweet isn’t what you’re here for. Actually, considering this, I have to thank you for proving my point- People like it when you’re a little mean to them.
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”Honesty is the best policy” is the weirdest altruistic thing that we often hear, but that expression in and of itself is looping around the point. Why not just say “Don’t lie”?
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This is something I’ve been talking about a lot lately, the older I get and the more perspectives I am able to view through my kaleidoscope of overthinking, I see how many lies are out in this world. Maybe I’m wrong, maybe people genuinely believe the garbage they regurgitate into this world for others to carry forth as a “truth”. I cannot deny my urge towards logic, I prefer things to be able to be proven. Yes, I hear the sneaky little overthinking brain asking “WhAt AbOuT LoVe?” Shhhhh… emotions are confusing. Anxiety, excitement and nervousness all present themselves very similarly in the body, yet we are quick to define them, without any proof. I digress.
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Scams and lies, or if we want to apply the same logic from “Honesty is the best policy”, you might have heard “Smoke and mirrors”. We joke about this as if its fun, as if all these things we think we need, are actual needs and not simply a bandaid for something much deeper.
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Can we please stop lying? Not just to ourselves, but each other?
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Several days have passed, if you're tracking my procrastination, it's Sunday the 7th, and I'm determined to have this newsletter "finished" tonight.
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Still super passionate about not lying, so I will tell you that I'm decently stoned, I've got dinner on the stove (homemade sundubu jjigae), and I'm not entirely sure what direction I want to take this email, or this series of emails (if you haven't caught on).
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The whole lying thing, though, is strange. Mainly because we lie to everyone, including ourselves. Fascinating.
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I'll be the first to tell you that I lie to myself every day. I tell myself it's okay not to do things, even if not doing them is a direct detriment to any sort of goal, task, or miscellaneous accomplishment I am after. I don't like it. It makes me feel icky. Life is not easy, and it requires an annoying amount of maintenance. Being an adult sucks. Having responsibilities to things and people, and yourself, well, it is stressful- and then there's one more thing you've got to address.
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I'd also like to pose this possible conundrum:
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Let us consider that we are all doing this life for the first time. Therefore, even if we are repeating actions, we cannot be doing it exactly the same as any previous attempt. Sure, your muscles have memory, and if this action is physical, you may become more precise, "better", but every time it's performed, it is still a new iteration. Would it be too much of a stretch to claim that we are lying to ourselves almost as a compulsion? It is the first time you're doing anything; regardless of your experience, there is no guarantee that things will go as they have previously.
So you can tell yourself "you got this" all you want, regardless you might not.
Food for thought
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Maybe that makes sense, don't ask me any questions about it, though, because I might not be able to argue my point. Leave it as a thought, something in passing, rather than a statement that has, to whatever extent, permanence.
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Anyway, I'm off to enjoy my aforementioned dinner, and I hope you're off to enjoy the rest of your Monday, because I know you anticipate my emails and read them immediately.
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