I have done so much today (Sunday), and even still now that I have opened my laptop to author this, I have some fuel in the tank. Thanks, Ritalin.
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I'm not entirely certain how much fuel is in the tank, or how that will manifest as I completely freestyle this week's edition; most of these are freestyled. It has been a week in my life, and a week in yours as well. Or, something like that. I have no clue whether you have or haven't read a previous email of mine. Regardless, I hope you have been well.
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I'm not sure how to start writing about this loop of thought I've been racing through my mind.. So I'm just going to blurt it all out.. What exactly is growing up? It can't spontaneously happen on your 18th birthday, or even your second one. Is it a choice? Something we are forced into? How do we define "growing up"? I understand that this, like many things, will require many different correct answers because they're all contingent on personal experience. Would that then make it forced somehow? Is anyone still following this? I often think about the future, not of this world, or this country (barf), but of myself, because who doesn't, let's be honest. I wonder what my mind will be like in another thirty years, but this time I get to make all my own decisions and am exponentially more conscious than a significant portion of the previous years. I'm supposedly a grown-up, an adult, to whatever varying extent, and I don't really feel grown-up. I've only had this complete and utter self-responsibility for around half my current life; by that math, knowing myself, there is so much more ahead of me than is behind. C.S. Lewis has a quote about something like that. Why would I dare say I've grown up now? Way too early if you ask me. I'm still bewildered at the permissions I have, plus, grown-ups are supposed to be boring, and I'm really not interested in that descriptor.
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If anyone has any answers that they're so certain about, spread the knowledge. As far as I'm concerned, it's all a sham. It's probably still worth a ponder, though, just so you know where you stand or whatever. Its good to think you can be certain.
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